When I started this blog years and years ago I was looking for an outlet, a way to connect with those we had moved away from in Ohio. It was also a way to stay connected to the "outside world" because where we had moved didn't even have television service and we have never subscribed to a cable or satellite. Through this blog my kids "grew up". . .then we moved to East Tennessee, the kids were in middle school and high school, and blogging became a passive hobby of mine -- one that I continued to follow but rarely participated in. I miss it. . .but then again, when do I have the time and what would I talk/write about??
And now, here I am, an Empty Nester, and feeling lost. What now? What's ahead? Looking back on previous posts, I miss that happy, full life but these last years have been just as happy and full, just not documented. I think when Smart Phones became the "everyday" phone the "need" to connect through the internet just wasn't the same. But. . .here we are, here I am, looking for an outlet. A reason to start taking pictures again! It's amazing how my documentation of life through pictures has become a little weaker too.
So. . .I'm going to stumble through this new season. College/early marriage wasn't necessarily "hard". . .just something I did because it was expected and the way forward. God had blessed me with a family to get me there and a high school boyfriend who I have been lucky enough to build this life with. I had followed my life-long dream of being a teacher and went straight into the classroom from college. . .then straight to marriage, became a homeowner, a dog owner, and parent.
Motherhood, hopefully, has defined me. It is the BEST thing that has ever happened to me. I have loved every day of it. . .but I can say that because of the tremendous support I have always had in this journey. Not everyone is as fortunate to have family, churches, resources, or time to do this job like I have.
And now. . .well. . .it's a season I am uncomfortable in. What do I do? Some days I say "who am I?" but that is a lie that Satan tries to distract me with so I won't go there. What's next? I have always been a "move forward" kind of person and I find myself treading water here at the end of 2021.
So, I think I'm going to reach out into this blogging world again. Does anyone even read these anyway? It doesn't really matter to me one way or the other -- it's MY journal, my notes, my thoughts and if people come along the way to comment and start conversations I will be so happy. I LOVE community and have always gone back to this one. In fact, I have never stopped reading the other blogs -- you can see them on my sidebar :). (I've also noticed how their blogs have changed, found their space, or, in some cases, like mine, drifted away.) I have a few thoughts of what I would like to do with this space. . .we'll see which bloom and take shape. I know what I like in other blogs so will try to follow those practices if possible. We'll see.
Until then. . .a couple more days of November and then on to December 2021!!! This Christmas season will look different than the past 15 -- new traditions for this new life space. First up today is a tradition that I *am* keeping -- the annual Foster Family Calendar. Here is what I think the cover is going to look like:
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